||[Apr. 2nd, 2008|10:28 pm]
|||||"No Sign Of Life" OK Go||]|
It's been awhile since my last post. You can tell by the fact that I almost sound affectionate towards the pedophile. I fear that things are going down hill the same way with adam as they were with keith. I need to speak with adam on Friday in person to get this point across and to determine where this relationship is going. I've found that recently I have nothing but complaints towards him and his apathetic behavior. I'm afraid to voice my concerns for fear that he'll just disregard them and say that I'm over reacting or taking things too seriously... Which almost exactly what keith told me only he said I was bipolar. I don't want to be a bitch like molly about our relationship but changes must be made if this relationship were to survive. I have troubles with breaking up with people. I don't like seeing others emotionally hurt... And I don't want to have to result to that just yet. I'm not sure anymore. I need some type of counsel.
The issues with adam are also not improving with stress from work. I was finally starting to get somewhere only to be dashed back to the rocks when amy unexpectedly quit. it's been stressing and the fact that ari all of a sudden is bossing me around when I was told several times that she wasn't my boss, is rediculous. She hardly works and when she does she does it slowly and badly. I'm on the verge of screaming and destroying something. I really can't take this. I try to tell myself it really isn't that much to deal with, but it falls so heavily upon me. I want it to be summer and for me to be far away from everyone. Hopefully my dad will either take me on a road trip of to europe, hopefully the latter. Meagan, Kris, and I were planning on taking a camping trip in RI near Newport, so I'm psyched for that... I don't really know what else to say. I know no one is going to read this though, seeing as pretty much none of my friends no about it... Maybe Eddie, but it's most likely long forgotten to him. Kinda miss talking to him though...